[he's quiet for a long moment, focusing on dragging his fingers lightly through absol's fur.]
I-- [he starts, then stops. his emotions, pathetic fallacy as they are, causes a light, oddly dry mist to descend on them. archie frowns-- nanu is right, he's been evasive but he's... not sure how to keep it up. too tired.] --keep coming back to the same thing, I think. I didn't consider I'd have to do this alone-- even after trying to push Shelly and Matt away as best I could.
[his nose wrinkles. he looks a little disgusted.]
I did what I did after striking out, but then in another world where no-one knows me or what I did, and suddenly it's too hard? I was relying on the others far too much. How pathetic. No matter how hard I try, I come back to feeling scared-- and yet can't figure out if that's true or if it's just an excuse I'm using to delay doing anything as long as possible.
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I-- [he starts, then stops. his emotions, pathetic fallacy as they are, causes a light, oddly dry mist to descend on them. archie frowns-- nanu is right, he's been evasive but he's... not sure how to keep it up. too tired.] --keep coming back to the same thing, I think. I didn't consider I'd have to do this alone-- even after trying to push Shelly and Matt away as best I could.
[his nose wrinkles. he looks a little disgusted.]
I did what I did after striking out, but then in another world where no-one knows me or what I did, and suddenly it's too hard? I was relying on the others far too much. How pathetic. No matter how hard I try, I come back to feeling scared-- and yet can't figure out if that's true or if it's just an excuse I'm using to delay doing anything as long as possible.